lashing out :(

We take out our anger on people who are innocent most of the time.

I am extremely guilty of doing this :X

It is like I am in this bubble of madness and i need to lash out. 

However, most of us (me included) are too cowardly to lash out/ confront the person who caused it :X

And we end up being passive aggressive. 

It is only when i see it in other people that i realize that....
WAIT A MOMENT

That's what I do too. 

And I want to change that. /tie cloth on forehead. 

Hi

Its exam timeeeeee and everything becomes instantly exciting. Everything except textbooks that is. Meanwhile, textbooks look like they are written in Jawi to me -_-

HAJIMEMASHITEEEEEEEEEE

The word just pops out in my mind lol and uhh… it sounds like WHY If u just drag the ending wtf.

/googles furiously/

It means ,,,, nice to meet you in Japanese HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA

SO FAR OFF

But does that mean I might be a Japanese reincarnate wtttf.

Just kidding wtf. Its probably from my manga reading days HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA

In other slightly more exciting news amidst all the exciting stuffs just cox its exams, there are two trips to look forward to. Both unconfirmed wtf.

1.      1.  Phuket trip

2.       2. Japan student exchange program 😃

I’m excited!

And as a note to self, when the lesson is learnt, let go 😃 like Elsa 😃

Or was it Anna?

/index finger on chin

Also, learn to drive

Also, also, also, get a car wtf

Also, also, also, also, get a job first to have money to get a car wtff

WOES

HAHHAH Hi, it is only when I'm unhappy/ angry/ irritated/emo that I feel like I need to write things down lol. Sorry sidechick :(

woe 1 : need to get scholarship for my exchange stint
-its expensiveeeeee

woe 2 : i sell fishcakes by the cakeshop wtf

woe 3: Hooman in general are weird :X
Responsibility might not be high on their charts. I really do wonder how can some people enter this uni while many brilliant-er people gets rejected /laugh bitterly


WOE MUCH WOW wtf

A missing piece

There's a missing piece inside of me, the rhythm of my heart hits unevenly,

-David Choi

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You know how Facebook will show the two people that you talk to the most under recent contacts?

She is not there anymore.

What is this mixed feelings I am having? I am sad to be honest. It’s a little sad isn’t it? How two people can be the closest human beings and another day, they are not anymore.

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After the break up, I built my wall, as thick as I could, as high as I could reach. I thought it was perfect, I thought I am healed, I thought I am alright. I could even talk to her normally on the messenger. When she did not reply my casual his and byes, I could just wave it away with the thought, well, we are not together anymore. But why is it that just by appearing before me, the wall that I so carefully built, brick by brick, came crumbling down. This is a joke, ain't it? 

T____________________T

And then, for a very long time after that, I cried. I cried like it was the first time she said to me, I don't want this anymore.

On second thought, it was the first time I saw her after we broke up. And she said that I was prettier before this HAHAHAHAHAHA FML thanks for breaking my heart and then kick it. 

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The things that she gave me.... I still have them. I don't have any courage to throw them away because then it will be real. Final fuckingly real. I know I am an idiot for holding onto these feelings and memories that she probably never even gave one millisecond of thought to but.... I don't know. I just can't. T_T Someone please help me to. 

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What doesn't kill you makes you stronger. I really hope it is true. And I hope it comes fast because I have had enough of being a pathetic little shit. T________T

Maybe one day when I reread this post, I will come to realize what a foolish little motherfucker piece of shit I am and that it is okay to feel sad and cry sometimes. It is okay to not be strong. And it is okay to love again. But right now, I need to focus on not crying and be natural around the person that .... I used to know. 

When I was 7

When I was 7, my mom gave me my first pocket money, I think it was RM3. Prior to that, I always brought breads to school for lunches and would not need to spend any money. I forgot why and how but I was given three bucks.

Big fucking deal.


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But to the seven-year-old sloth who has never had even one ringgit before, the sloth viewed the three blue notes as if they were the ring that everyone fought to have in LOTR. My preciousssss (please read this in Gollum's voice thanks)

Somehow, a crisis happened.

Yes, one of the three blue notes went missing. Dropped. Disappeared like Houdini. Poof. Nowhere to be seen.

The seven year old Sloth retraced her steps and went back to everywhere she was. She went to the office, to the bookstore and looked for it on the floor. Her friends helped too.

But the blue note remained missing or had acquired an invisibility cloak, she does not know. She was worried and her friend told her that they should just report it to the teacher. When she recounted the story to the teacher, she cried super pitifully.

The kind teacher took out a one ringgit note from her desk and told her that someone has picked it up earlier and has handed it to her.

Sloth was once again reunited with one of the three blue notes and the four of them (Sloth and the three blue notes) lived happily ever after.

The end.

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But right, now that I am older and relatively wiser, I now realize that the blue note must have came out from the teacher's own pocket lololol. Anyway, if you are reading this, Pn. Violet (even though I don' t think you would lololol) THANK YOU <3

and erm when I told C this story, she laughed at me fml and asked me to blog about it ahhHahahhaha so here it is.

Okbyeee

HAPPY IS ME

BECAUSE GUESS WHO GOT HER COLLEGE DORM?????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????


ME, THATS WHO!

I AM SO HAPPY I SHOULD DO TWO BACKFLIPS AND ONE PENGUIN DANCE
<3


Thankyou Buddha, Allah, Jesus

and also C and also TP whom i pester to pray for me HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHHA

TINDERTALES

HIIIIIII

So I was going through some turbulent times (hahahah) and C intro-ed Tinder to me lololololol (/whispers thanks) and without it, I think I wouldn't have such a speedy recovery (lol)

Anyway, Tinder is really the place where you find lots of crazy characters (albeit some of their counterparts are above the average level of boring)


Exhibit #1
Title: Uncreativity
Let's call him UG for Uncreative Guy.

So what happened was i, as always being the troll that I am is uhh trolling fellow tinder-ians la.
So when he said yo without anything else, I was honestly abit sian. Like what do you say after that??? And that is why I tried a Yo Mama joke but obviously this guy did not get it and uhh when i tried to deviate him from the pick-up line that he is brewing, he was lost and I unmatched him /mean

EXHIBIT #2
Title: Cow

I am creative /puts on proud face with arms akimbo

So there's this guy whose name is Sir.

And I called him Sirloin

AHAHAHAHAH okla not very funny also

/retreats slowly and closes the door to prevent any of you leaving

EXHIBIT #3
Title: RSM (Relatively Smart Guy)

I dont have screenshot of this but there's this guy whom i was talking to and then being the troll that I am, I made him guess for everything such as name, phone number etc lah. So I gave him my phone number except the last digit and asked him to figure it out himself.

And this RSM actually quite smart ah. He went to add every number known to human kind (even the number 10 WTF and that is why he is relatively smart and not Einstein wtwfwtfwtfwft) and added all of those numbers on WhatsApp (BTW GUYS, IT IS WHATSAPP, not whatapp or whatapp, or whatapps, It is WhatsApp alright??!!!!! sorry, just a tiny pet peeve that I have)

And lo and behold, only two numbers have Whatsapp and one of them is an Indian guy with piercing stare that could pierce through your brain XDDDDDD

I'll just blur out the guy's face except the eyes to protect his identity lah XD

Scary hor?
I actually laughed out loud when the RSM sent me this XDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD

Ok that's all the funny ones that I have la. If there's more I will do a part 2 ok.



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Please pray that I can get college (It's Residency College but we usually just call them college or KK).
CHEBAL BUDDHA ALLAH JESUS
/prays


OKBYE